Still <3

Reality's behind me

Thu, 24 Dec 2009 19:59:02 GMT

FACE IT! I just can't face it.

Let's just face it that sometimes, the answer of one minus one could turn out to be two even if how much you pray that it could be one; It's just not math.
Or maybe it's like this: There's just something out there to reach for that you can't put your finger on(or maybe you're sure what that is) but it's just that you suspect that that something is just a manifestation of the degree of your rationality; you doubt your sanity.

I just can't believe that I've picked up a bitch's shoe, metaphorically.
Such a loser.

P.s. Excessive workload do help take your mind off things at times; that's a theory that proves to be right for me recently.

BUZXZXZZ

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 04:34:04 GMT

I can't be sure anymore, sometimes it's really hard to explain.
Maybe it's just some post-:)V syndrome, plus I cannot deny I'm not thinking about that.
Still confused, even work isn't sufficient to serve as a distraction.
Is this fair?

Been working for this past few days, still a tad hard to accustom, been rusty on the skills.
Intended to seek another but applications just can't seem to be at all successful.
Guess I'm stuck with this if i want to keep it going.

Fb sucks, I'm frustrated with the photo uploading stuffs.
It's always upload failure no matter how I keep trying.
But I'll get it up somehow:D Just keep trying, and trying.

Yeah, pack up and leave for tuition already!

Confusion

Wed, 16 Dec 2009 10:48:39 GMT

It was kind of a part part outing yesterday:D
But no matter how many people came, I'll still love and cherish every moment spent with them.

Had tuition in the morning; just kept thinking that it is the last even when cheryl and caryn keep trying to convince me it's not:p

Tuition wasn't productive, HAHA:p

Caryn thinks it's unglam that she's eating:p

But anyways, I learned from the hard way that I shouldn't use "fluctuations" to describe any part of a trend cause it's too broad a description. Oh wells.

Wisma with caryn after that at *$ to visit pl.
Just wanted to spring a surprise on him, then chat up a bit.
Everything felt a tad unreal for me, I just need affirmation.
Obviously, it didn't exactly help much, things just got worse for me.

We met Huiying then,
Apparently, she had attempted to knock into caryn to irritate her? get her attention? okay both.
She updated about her life in Trinity, Au and totally made me super jealous; she will be attending uni next year!!!
Uber cool. *signs* what a stark difference from me:(

P.s. She totally only remembered me as "the girl from shiyu's cca"

Left for spotlight after that to search for materials while caryn searched for her scrapbook materials.
It was all in a rush actually; meeting the part for lunch after that.

Sometimes it's really hard to believe how things can be so coincidental.
Guess who we met?
TADA! We actually met in the same cabin:p

Haha, then we started to camwhore in the cabin, fine, i insisted:p
Just when we were wondering who would help us take a picture, this really friendly lady volunteered; She claims that she loves photos:D HAHA.

Shiyu and I went ahead to meet the rest of the part after that:D

Time always passes really quickly when with delta...

These ~~ungrateful, terrible,~~:p uninterested people just want to be home after that:(
Which just leaves wendy and I to catch New Moon on our own:(:D
Haha, it's totally the third time i'm catching it on the big screen but it just gets better; It was great this time round as it was screened in Lido 1 with the good sound system(plus lesser people):D:D:D

I can never stop musing over the movie, maybe it's just the people in it:p
Or maybe not.
I mean, I can totally relate to bella; The depression which is inevitable to follow after the only thing you live for leaves you, How she had to move on(for her family) and find another person to hang out with to take her mind off him, The pain that follows once she's left alone to get reminded of him, The inferior complex, The insanity.

Not only her, but Edward too; When the song played in the background:

So pretty, so smart,
Such a waste of a young heart.
What a pity, what a shame,
What's the matter with you man?
Don't you see it's wrong?
Can't you get it right?
Out of mind and out of sight.
Call on all your girls, don't forget the boys,
Put a lid on all that noise.
I'm a satellite heart lost in the dark.
I'm spun out so far, you stop I start, but i'll be true to you.
I hear you're living out of state, running in a whole new scene.
You know I haven't slept in weeks, you're the only thing I see.
I'm a satellite heart lost in the dark.
I'm spun out so far, you stop I start, but I'll be true to you,
no matter what you do.

And someone please tell me what she was telling edward when Satellite Heart's playing?
She was telling him to change her!
See the pain she's inflicting on him?!

Opps, guess i'm always being too emotional whenever it comes to him...

BACKKKK....

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 03:32:15 GMT

NZ was great, wish it would just never end.
I miss the scenery, I miss the food, I miss the people.

But even the best still comes to an end eventually.

Back in singapore...

Family outing @ Riverview:D

I'll let pictures tell the story...

Woke up

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 16:46:38 GMT

Oh dear, how long has it been?

Haha, time to wakey, snowsphere!

Yeah, so, i'm starting to blog again. I mean, why not?
Forgotten why I've chosen to stop blogging in the first place but well, I guess I've forgotten that I'm a weird kid:p

Anyways, I'M STILL ROBSESSED.
Totally, like how many centuries have passed already right?

Nothing much that's going on in my life, or nothing much i think that is going on in my life.
Pretty much the same thing, oh, but i've stumbled upon this shaw movie contest for New Moon goodies.
They asked for me to continue from this section of the story with my wildest imagination with just 50 words:
"Shoot, " I muttered when the paper sliced my finger; I pulled it out to examine the damage. A single drop of blood oozed from the tiny cut.

and so, i kinda crapped out the following:

It all happened quickly.
Edward turned towards me in a protective crouch. "Hiding your desires from me is impossible."
"Edward, I've seen it happen," Alice enthused "Go on, Jasper"
"Subjective visions", Edward retorted, a tortured expression twisted his perfect features.
"Edward", I interrupted, "But I want to be your supper."

The End.

Haha, I was just really bored. Plus I've always felt Bella should have just said that.(Alright, I admit I secretly look forward to seeing Edward slap her -to wake her up alright!) :p
Anyways, The above was just roughly what i remembered typing.

BUT HERE'S THE MAIN POINT.

I totally just accidentally pressed the "enter" button, for the sentencing/paragraphing(or whatever) effect and it just submitted. Like halfway halfway before I'd finished the story!

~~This is damn f**king a waste of my time, right right?~~

Okay fine, I'm over that.

Haha, anyway, I've stumbled upon this--> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oWV6iklM_HQ
It's like a advertisement Bing created to promote itself as a search engine.
Although the vampire inspiration was a tad standard, it's still hilarious(it's afterall vampires!)
Just watch it.

Should be it.

Leaving for NZ soon. Back on the 11th but would have family outing from 13th to 14th( would be residing in a hotel, which explains the date). Yeah, so blogging might be limited to this post before being back here on perhaps 14th/15th?

So looking forward to catching new moon with purnima tmr!(Even I've catched it already:p)

ROB ROB ROB:D

Random stupid rantings

Sat, 23 May 2009 10:46:11 GMT

*In the living room*
Grandma & Daddy having a discussion about old singapore and relatives. They were relating a few issues to me.

"Propaganda, period" i put an end to listening.

Perhaps it was because i frequently heard them in the past or maybe i just can't be bothered or perhaps i wanted to finish math. Excuses.
There is actually lessons to be learned from it.

Why were they reminiscing about the past? It's because they regret and they missed.
They regret because they didn't do the right thing and they missed because they didn't cherish.

It's the me now. And i will learn.

If the response is WTF, it's okay, i'm used to it.
If it's STUPID, yeah i do agree, maybe i am.
If it's none, okay, i get it.

Twilight

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 15:27:28 GMT

It's better late than never.
I've finally personally felt the great impact of these words.

Okay firstly, I am deeply thankful towards constance for introducing twilight to me.
It's simply mesmerizing; The book just wouldn't leave my hands and eyes till i revealed the very last page of it.

I have so much to say,
shall begin with the reason that compelled me to have this entry.
-DRUMROLLS-

Twilight the movie is releasing on the 21 November! (maybe later in singapore)
And, it's completed already!
Okay HERE HERE, the trailer:D

The casts-
Kristen Steward as Bella Swan
OH, and she's ~~really pretty~~ beautiful, super suitable for Bella's role.
I'm jealous of bella(her in the novel) already and now the person to play her character is gorgeous. Humph! UNFAIR!

But that's not important.
The important part is the person playing Edward Cullen's role.
HAHA. Edward is my new crush and i go crazy over him all day. Yes, he is always on my mind!
(And the irony is that my dad's edward and constance was laughing at me for liking my own dad, haha)
So the actor playing his role is super important okay!
Reveal reveal! He is Robert Pattinson, played Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter.
At first, i just thought he didn't really fit the kind of image i had of Edward; Dazzling beautiful.
But, watch on, wait for the movie to be release, i believe he'll be perfect for the character.

WHOO!! Vampires are irresistible!

One reason that i can't wait for this,
Okay, don't laugh at me.
I know it's stupid, but it's the first time that i read a book before it was filmed into a movie.( I completely can feel how touched Stephenie Meyer feels having her publication filmed into a movie)
HAHA, and Harry Potter is not counted because, okay don't laugh again, i watched Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone before reading it the book and I didn't complete the book because i didn't have the motivation to finish it after the movie.( the contents being revealed).

Can't wait! Can't wait!
I just cannot contain the excitement anymore!
Okay, chill chill!

(after 5 minutes)

CHILLED! - talking about my drink, haha(:

I am too high, crapping too much.
Shall now concentrate on what's important!

Opps! I'm supposed to be mugging and to be missing in action!
Will be off!

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 10:32:53 GMT

I am a self-claim nerd who do not study but still,
Back here to shout out loud that there are 29 days left to O's!
(to phy/chem practical)
All the best to everyone's studying plan and hope that mine works too(:

Sometimes there are just things that you want to say it out loud, but as people grow, unknowingly more and more constrains are formed and you'll realised that you'll just have to keep it within you and get on with your life.
I deserved it.

HAHA! Declaration of romantic intent(:

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 13:04:57 GMT

Today is tuition day and i so completely give going to constance's house a miss because of tuition):
But then my tution teacher pangseh me!
She says to shift tuition to tuesday because it's holidays.
): ): ): I forgive her, but on the condition that she signs this:

HAHAHA! This is damn fun! Constance discovered it(:
Okay, i have to admit that i am really bored cause there's no tuition today.

OMG! Constance completely made me laugh out loud!
Look!

When I first saw the email, i was quite suspicious of it then i didn't dare to open it!
HAHAHAHA! She is super funny(:
There are still others she wrote which are really funny but they cannot be here.
because i am already revealing a TOP SECRET!!!

So if you seen this, pretend that it didn't exsit and keep the secret to yourself!
YAY! I shared the joy:D
Off to finish off my tuition work then do some revision!
Pray that i don't become a nerd! (But nerds are actually nice people, haha!)
Off to study!

My Teachers' DAY!

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 10:31:52 GMT

I feel so happy for them (teachers).
They really did a lot for us and took a lot of shit from us when we don't feel like doing their work which was for our own good.
I love them. All of them, i really do.
And i tried really hard to be a good student and not give them too much trouble for them to be happier.
I guess i kinda failed, they still looked really stressed.

Did you know when i was young, i aspired to be a teacher? I wanted to be a math teacher. I wanted to inspire students to love math and then excel in it.
But apparently, my math seem to be getting suckier ever since i've got mr phua as my first math teacher (NO OFFENCE !)
I am just saying how i felt :p HEEHEE!

Just reached home, went to catch Cyborg She with wendy just now.
OMG! That show is damn good.
To admit it, at first when wendy told me about the show and it's contents, I wasn't really interested to catch it.
I had thought, after all, it is going to be another show about humans falling in love with robots then the robot like the human then happily ever after. Sounds super standard right?
But CYBORG SHE is a million times better than those standard movie/drama content!
To reveal abit, The ending is not what anybody can imagine even after watching for an hour. (HAHA, i don't think i revealed anything anyway:D)
Just catch it! If you don't, then you may find yourself sighing everyday! Because you are regretting missing the best movie with the best plot and the best actors and actresses!
Okay, end of advertising. Anyway, i think i suck in it. Does anyone feel tempted to watch the movie now? Tell me i actually succeeded(:
P.S. Thank me wendy, i just helped to promote your show!

Anyway, back to the topic of Cyborg She, another great thing about it is that after watching the whole show, you will really be inspired about life.
No no no! The show is not so boring to talk about life, if it is, i am just going to sleep in the cinema and then this post wouldn't exist(:
You will just be prompt to really think about what you really want to do right now in your life that makes you leave no regret for yourself. Time is never enough.
Just go catch the movie! You will understand why(:!

Oh Oh Oh! I HAVE to mention this;
I think people should not visit shop & save!
I only said i think (like XX!) so i will not get sued like her (:
Visited S&S yesterday night with wendy.
Their wine and beer section is quite lousy loh; It is placed hack-care-ly in those simple shelf and it's super pushed to the outside; as if to deliberately let a customer break it then compensate.

I wanted to get this packet of sweets stacked at the top of the shelf so i stepped back and leaned at the shelf (not knowing that it's the wine section), Then the moment i stepped front again, the bottle of beer fell.
The next moment, a worker came out pointed at me and said something like "ORH HOR! You broke the bottle!"
Then her manager, the big shot, came. She stared at me with the fierce look and sternly asked, "How did you break the bottle?"
In my mind, i was like thinking, LIKE THAT LAH!
Is like how she expect me to describe how i break it? Say what, "Oh, because i haven't reach the age of being able to buy beer, i broke it so as to have the thrill of paying of it!" Or should i say, "Because i want to see your pretty face!". CRAZY!
So i explained to her the entire incident and then she walked away leaving her worker to clean the mess. (Super irresponsible one.)
Then her worker went to clean up the shattered glass bottle, leaving me smelling awfully like a drunkard with bits of glass on my feet.
They are damn nice to their customer right?

Damn it, i don't mind compensating, i admit it's my fault too because i should have noticed how casually and out your workers placed the bottle. But still, don't give me that kind of attitude lah!

HAHA, So i did a little bit of uhem, reasoning to terrorise the cashier.
I actually didn't do a lot. I just acted abit fierce towards him and spoke in a very sarcastic manner.
Then he got scared leh! WHOA! Not bad hah!

Okay, end of story(:
Yay yay yay! The whole of next week is holiday!

P.P.S. Bronte, you did well(: Nevermind about who won! As long as you all had fun!

I am called Queen today

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 16:05:02 GMT

Stop staring at the subject above!
Okay, Yes yes yes, i know what you are thinking.
I am not ego lah! To call myself that.

There's a long story to this "title".
And i said it once to YJ so i am lazy to repeat once more.

Anyway, (AHEM, serious tone already!)
I thank everyone who wished me Happy birthday to me, sincerely from the bottom of my heart.
everyone was really sweet today (:

Yeah, and this is for alpha08:
You guys hah...
THANK YOU! And stop asking me to think about you guys anymore!
CAUSE YOU ARE ALL ALWAYS IN MY MIND!

Haha, and i know that delta08 wouldn't be jealous right?
Heehee, muacks people!

Details of my birthday today would be friends-only.
Thank you for your kind understanding (:

For entertainment, comparison of trends on birthdays:)
Go to the fifteenth post, first paragraph!
Okay lah, for other's convienience, i cut and paste it here!

Even animals wishes me happy birthday okay?
Sec one: A BIG BEE BIT ME ON MY FINGER, i was excused from school and i had to be sent to the doctor's.
Sec two: (Am i counted as an animal?) I took lots of photos!(YAY!)
Sec three: A lizard crawled over my feet in school

Oh, that post was meant for my eyecandy (fyi).
Didn't realized that I didn't explain about the incidents in that post.

I'll explain now, wendy reminded me of what that had happened, so i still have a little bit of recollection.

Secondary One. ( I think it should be like that)
My form teacher was mr raymond phua! I still remember okay!
Then i remember that day i went to school happily and then the day started with flag raising ceremony.(Duh!)
Then when the national anthem was about to start, i felt that there was something on my head, so i stupidly went to touch it when my brain already sent signals to my body that it is actually a living creature and that perhaps i shouldn't touch it.
Okay fine, i touched it in the end, then i got stung, it was a bee, go ahead and laugh. (signs)
Then i remember crying when i was singing the anthem because apparently when i got stung, the anthem just started.
Yeah, then i got sent to the doctors.
Later in the afternoon, there is amc.
So being a stupid kid in secondary one, i dragged myself back to school in the afternoon after taking the pills/medicine to take the test and then feel asleep because of the drug effect of the medicine. When i woke up, the test was over and the worse part is that i didn't even submit the papers.

Secondary Two.
This is abit lame. Cause i was nicknamed "fishy", thus an animal, and due to camwhoring the whole day... ...
Yeah, you know what i mean(:

Secondary Three.
Went back to school on a saturday for bronte house mass dance practice.
Then at that time already have to wear school skirts to school already.
I didn't bring the skirt so decided to walk closer to the guardhouse, (because people say, the nearer you are to danger, the safer you will be)
and then, all of a sudden,
A BIG FAT LIZARD ran across my feet! I was wearing slippers!
OMG, i still remember that kind of feeling okay?

Secondary Four.
Friends-only post!
Beware of overdose of certain words(:

Not bored to tears right? HAHA.
That's all!

Happy birthday Wendy the cool nerd!

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 13:10:59 GMT

Happy birthday wendy!
Today is officially wendy ng peili birthday.
Heehee, i've say what i wanted in the letter, so will keep it short(:

To wendy: Thank you for being such a good friend and platoonmate to me for 4 years + one year in p6!
Tell you something that will make you happy!
HAHA, i thought that you were cool in primary six.
(Okay, that's all. i am not leaving more evidence about my admiration for you Queen!) HAHA!

For the present, i really mean it about you getting 8A1s! I will give the the keys right after O's ends.( spot the irony in my words!)
I love you Queen wendy of the cool nerd paradise!

Another day of birthday party today.
This surprise, like yesterday, actually had more loopholes than the one they organised for me,
Heehee, i'll leave that to meltedsunshine to summarise!
But wendy didn't realise it at all, HAHA.

Some loopholes:
1) At the Ahlian incident yesterday (see summerthunderrr for details), i was actually not there to witness the event because i went to order wendy's cake (the design is the face of a nerd with words "Happy birthday, Wendy the cool nerd!")

2) I ganged up with wendy's mum and she kept messaging me, and one of the time wendy actually saw this on my phone; " 1 message from Wendy's mum".
Then wendy asked me : "Eh waihan, why did my mum message you?"
I gave that guilty look and kept "er, er, er" -ing away.
Then she helped me in answering and said, " Oh! my mum ask you where i am right? Sorry my batt flat "
So i was relieved and stammered: " Yes lah! Aiyo wendy! So what do i reply your mum?!"
Then Ana(who was sitting opposite me) helped and said: "Oh wendy, your mum also called and ask me where you were. Aiyo! Your mum peep at your phone isit? But it's okay lah, my mum also does that."
So i added, " Oh yes, my mum does that too!"
HEEHEE! And she BELIEVES!

3) I smsed Ayah if toonjia is coming for the surprise party, then at the end when we were about to leave,
Ayah said in her usual loud voice,"Hey! Toonjia says she can't make it for tomorrow"
-The exciting part-
Wendy asked, " Huh? Make it for what?
-All of a sudden, time seemed to stop for me and maybe all of us cause the "tomorrow" mentioned was actually her surprise party-
Ayah then made a very awkward turn, " Urm, the bowling tomorrow what."
(Background information: I actually arranged to meet wendy only at safra mt faber for bowling)
Wendy the told Ayah, " But only me and waihan going for bowling right?"
Ayah then replied, " Oh really?! Sorry, i thought everyone was going, so i smsed toonjia."
HAHA, then Ayah made her way to the back and gave an sorry expression(:

Just mentioned some of the most obvious loopholes but wendy didn't realise(:

At her house was great.
Her mum prepared a lot of food and it's really delicious!
Especially the FRIED CHICKEN! It's better than KFC's( I think KFC's chicken are damn oily!)
Oh, it's something like pizza hut's drumlets! Very seasoned and tasty.
Then we raided her room and camwhore at her super wide doorway.
Then we left and went safra for Kaya toast, OMG! I love the EGGS!
Gracia then left for church,
And the rest of us went BM macs to study (again), in the hope that no ahlians would be there.

I became shiyu's temporary tuition teacher today.
She made me give up the hope that i can be a teacher in the future:(
Okay, but i decided that i still have to finish teaching shiyu trigonometry before coming to a conclusion about my future:)

Wendy, who sat opposite me when i was teaching my student, kept laughing(it's actually my honour as a loyal subject to have the Queen laugh at me) -signs- and i still thought that i was a good teacher:(
Wendy then left because her sister finally realise that she should be nice to her elder sister and treated wendy to a movie.
Wendy rocks lah, she's damn good to her sister who is super mean to her.

Then we all left for home.

When i'm home, i feel very at home, partly because the big bulky fridge was gone and also, because i am super tired.

Anyway,
Yeah, I ALSO want to be a Queen!
And constance says that i can be my "queen" tomorrow cause quote, unquote from her, " You birthday you big."
Then I thought, how good can my day be tomorrow when,
1) I still have to wake up for school early for summary writing and run for the bus when i am late.
2) timetable so damn long tomorrow.
3) There is "I am gifted" booster session from 3 to 5.
4) Mrs Tan wants to keep my class from 6 to 8 for night study.
Oh man, what if i meet the pervertic flasher outside the school? (TOUCHWOOD)
Then it would really be the best present man.
* No offence about mentioning the flasher, it is the hot topic for night study session as we were constantly reminded about it before leaving the school premises.

I am still tired after waking up, will go back to sleep and wake up later to do my homework,
Don't want to get scolded be teachers tomorrow(:

Nights!

~~P.S. 2nd August is not my birthday(: Thanks.~~

MANY MANY BIG THANKS!

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 17:18:29 GMT

Just came back home.
Tired, happy, told myself not to blog anymore till O's ends,
but i have to do this.

I am;
Chewing the Cookie (with my favourite blue colour!),
Munching on the Baked Goldfish crackers (fish! and it's zero grams trans fat!),
Loving the Ferrero Rocher (satisfaction already guaranteed!),
Licking the Lollipops (so many! But i love sweets!),
Smelling the flowers (all girls love flowers, not to say a manly one!)
Admiring the Necklace and the mickey ear stud (so pretty and blinky!)
Squeezing the stripy Lion/Tiger ( I can't tell! Or is it a cat with white beard? Heehee! But it's so soft and squeezable!)
Fascinated by the big mouth cookie monster w body ( It's body is so small! But it's mouth is bigger than mine!)
Comparing the size of my head with the cookie monster ( Mine's smaller!)
Counting the stars in the Glass Bottle ( There's 14! Am i right?)
Staring at the birthday day bear (Can i make a wish with it?)
Aiming with the Wooden pistol ( Who made it?! So pretty! I tried making something similar but gave up in the end *shows teeth*)
Holding the big paw in my right hand ( Woo! I have really sharp nails!)
Smiling silly-ly at the Tatty Teddy in the giraffe suit ( It's super cute, damn cute! I want to wear that suit too!)

OMG! i can multi task super well!

Those who are wondering what happened,
OMG!!!!( amazed at how gullible am i) , I'll start from the beginning.

Decided to list out because shiyu reminded me just now that every event like this, there would be loopholes(:\

1st loophole:
Many weeks ago, gracia messaged me: waihan, may i know what's your address, i want to send something to you! (Something like that, i think.)
Of course i am not that dumb, so i asked her why and she told me that she want to send me something.
AND I BELIEVED!

2nd loophole:
About a week ago, gracia told me to keep 2nd august free because she wanted to study together with me.
And i was very happy and look forward a lot to studying with her. (You know what, i even saved on my phone for today, "STUDY WITH GRACIA!") SO I BELIEVED TOO!

3rd loophole:
This week, i was reminded about the study session with delta. So i asked about the venue and the time to meet them. But always got no reply. So i thought that everyone i asked was busy and don't want to be irritating and probe. I STILL DIDN'T suspect anything!

4th loophole:
Today, constance said she wanna come my house, i wanted to reject her cause i was lazy to pack my house to welcome a guest. But she told me that everyone said my house was interesting so she wanted to come and explore. So i obliged. ( HAHA, and she came when i just finished bathing, super fast!)

5th loophole:
Then she kept typing messages on her phone and didn't wanted me to see what she was messaging then i respected her privacy and let her carry on. I STILL STILL DID NOT SUSPECT!

OH NO! I SHOWED EVIDENCES OF MY GULLIBLENESS!!! PRAY THAT I WILL BE SMARTER(:

Then constance asked me to show her my clothes, which are messy and thrown everywhere around the house, then she offered to help me chose the clothes to wear then i trusted her and wore it. Then we went back out to the living room to blog hop then constance pointed out of my door and said "ehh, so many people, your cadets ah?"
Then i replied " No lah, why would they come here?(cause i thought they didn't know how to come) They must be my neighbour's friends( Cause my neighbour always hold parties, then always a lot of people go their house.)"
Then i look out and heard people calling, "waihan!" then i wondered, " why do my neighbours' friends know me?"
So i look and realised it was delta! and alpha peeping and then going back to hide. HEEHEE, they are so cute.
Believe me, i was shocked out of my life. Really shocked, and i kept asking " is this a dream?" My brain tells me YES but my heart tells me NO, and i believed my heart more somehow.
Then somehow, the door got opened( did i open it?) and everyone came in.
I just know at that moment it was a struggle between my heart and my brain cause apparently my stupid brain keeps telling me that it's just a dream.
And, it's damn maluating lah! Don't like the feeling of being caught unaware!
It's like i am being caught in the act of doing something i shouldn't be doing.
Try it someday, you'll like the surprise but not the invaded feeling!

Yeah, and so everything took place in my humble and small abode (It's damn cramped, i think everyone would feel like me!)
Then we're in the mist of changing the refrigerator then both the old and the new one also so zuo tang(means take up a lot of space), anyway, i prefer the old one:(
And it's really the first time in how many years that this house is so crowded since house warming!
Then i tried to prepare food but was damn clumsy, tried to cut apples and it turned out abit ugly then my grandma helped me!( she so nice!) I really hope i was a good host(:
Just that i didn't do the job of entertaining my "guests" well:(
Luckily there was delta who is already an entertainment by itself and alpha, who tried to entertain us! Heehee, but then it somehow failed, never mind, it's still commendable! *claps claps!*
Then we decided to leave the house when i finally persuaded snr to perform magic for us:(
And Hardworking and housewives-to-be/ taitai-to-be delta helped to clear up my place in a flash!
Thanks friend ! (inside joke!) If not i'm going to be nagged at for leaving straight after creating a mess! MUCKS people!

Left Alpha at an isolated bus stop(!!!) on their way to their little bonding session(everyone is safety home? No one got lost?)
then studied with delta at macs with was productive for some of us, but not for me, cause, i cannot solve one of the AMath question! Then asked for help but everyone shake their head at me:( ! Also partly because my hands were busy with the phone, heehee, sorry Ayah!

Shall end off this post randomly (again!) with:

I LOVE TODAY! I REALLY DO! (even though the real day is two days later)
And REALLY, THANK YOU DELTA!! THANK YOU ALPHA!!
Thank you delta, esp. gracia! and constance!, and all, WHO GANGED UP ON ME! (just kidding!)
Thank you alpha, for doing so much despite it's a saturday! (should go out with your BFs what! Don't think too much! It's your bestfriends! HAHA.)
Thank you family, who all got a shock/surprise like me(:
To sum it up, THANKS EVERYONE!

p.s. get well soon my tuition teacher! I love you and will finish off kinematics and integration corrections! Take care! MUCKS!
p.p.s. I really hate to miss Amath lessons and really woke up late.
p.p.p.s. For the previous post, my camera can't send the pictures over, so i can't post those pictures nor recent events. Officially apologising(:
p.p.p.p.s. Just read someone's blog(bet that person don't know that i know!) and found that i wasn't the only one who take chill pills at times! Hey no, no, no, don't you try to copy me! (just kidding!)

Racial Harmony Day!

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 15:20:57 GMT

I simply love today to the max!
Thank you everyone whom i encountered for the sweetest memories you gave me today.
Heehee, sorry to say this but, I WILL UPDATE ASAP when i get the photos up and feel more energised!

Till then love!

A typical hectic week.

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 13:17:10 GMT

I've got on with life.
Hate to say this, but Mrs Wong reminded me, four more ~~weeks~~ months to O's :(!
If it's week, like what constance always tell me, I die.
I am so very afraid.
If only I can play everyday like when it was secondary one and two :(
HAHA. But I've grown up!
Fell in love with all my books already :p
Just that my books are not accepting me because i've abandoned them for such a long long time.
But no matter what it takes, i will make my book love me again!
I just made myself sound like a no-life nerd. No offence to nerds. HAHA

Something I want to mention badly, maybe not the whole matter here.
Just want to say how much i regret about something.
This lesson is really a big one and it's certainly not worth it at all.
I promise not to be late ever again (unless i touchwood get into an accident or other complicating situations), i will do my very best to keep this promise and give no excuses to myself.
I will prove it with action, and i believe that opportunities are always there as long as we work hard for it.

Oh, Anyway, something random.
I've changed my parting!
Although i like the new parting, it's difficult to maintain and it keeps going back to the other side :(

I shall let this post end abruptly here! :p

P.S. Feel like punching me right? HAHA.

I don't know how to put a subject to this.

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 05:48:00 GMT

ATTENTION.
-Those who are emotionally unstable right now, i advise you to skip reading this post by an emotionally unstable person.-
If you are emotionally unstable and you still insist on proceeding, I can't stop you.

I just woke up.
Then read gracia's msg, replied her, and got back her reply.
Actually i think i am really slow.
I didn't realised, i didn't realised a single bit of it, that we are really parting.
I just thought that ROD was only parting in "NC" and we will will still be able to meet up what.
But now i know, everything is not so simple.
Yet, i can't explain fully how i feel.
Now i am really crying non-stop.

Delta, i am so scared, so scared that that it's hard to meet up.
I worry, i don't know why i do, but i worry for each one of you.
It's like our "family" has really became a family.
But yet we don't have a house.
Can Ayah go get a house so that we can stay together for good?
I cannot accept, i really cannot accept.
I miss you a lot, a lot delta.
~~Fuck~~ the stupid education system lah!
I want all of you to come back to me.

Then I dreamed about my cadets.
We were still having activities.
Then It was somehow not the last activity.
It was like, we were still their NCO even though we are still taking our O's.
Then by that time, we knew everyone really well, like now, unlike when they first came in and we had to fight for the time to understand them.
We have so much time in the dream.
And HAHA, those bunch of funny kids really made me laugh out loud in my dream until my grandma came to slap me awake(cause it's really late now)
I realised I had so little time with them!
What's with those ~~fucking~~ lessons lah!? It made me attended them and made me lose so much time that i could have possibly spent with them.
And ... ( just backspaced a whole stretch of words)
Is there no possibility that we can ever have activity with you guys again?
I miss you alpha.

I cannot stop crying.
I f~~ucking~~ feel like a ~~damn~~ emo kid now!
I really hate being slow, and reacting slow.
If i was any faster in realising all that, i could have just possibly tell it to all of you face to face.
But right after we go back to school, all we'll face is books.
Books that numb all feelings you can possibly have.
Much as i speak like a spoil brat, I want everything that i've lost to come back to me,
though i know systems can't be changes, things wouldn't stay forever and I can't be selfish and not spare a thought of others.

It's until now that i've realised that i've failed to cherish all that i've got.
I regret.

ps. i apologise for the "not-approved" words used here. But put yourself in my shoes. Who will speak properly in these kind of situations? Thank you for your kind understanding.
pps. I am not putting any pictures here, thought i promised for "visual effects", because i know it will only make those who feel sad, sadder.

Delta!!!!!!

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 12:15:48 GMT

Delta, though we might not go for activity together again.
But chilling out like this is possible.
Our first-hand neoprints pictures from yesterday! (Ayah scanned them already! She is so efficient!)

A preview of the neoprints!
1st set!

2nd set!

3rd set!

* The third set's photos's are all not decorated, because we didn't see the stupid notice on the neoprint machine about selecting the one we don't want to print. (STUPID NOTICE RIGHT?!) WANT TO PRINT, PRINT BIGGER LAH! WTF!)

HAHA. For the rest of the neoprints.
GO TO MY SHUTTERFLY! The link and password(in case you forgot) is at part blog.
If you want better quality, ask me or AYAH for the photos!

Loves,
~~Charlie~~Delta Messenger! (haha!)

4/7/08

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 12:03:01 GMT

I can still remember the first time i met you, delta08.
It was under the old location for the NCC noticeboard.
Remember that day? We had our interview by maam yonghui and snr huey huey.
( I don't know why i am still calling their ranks when i am a snr now, but, it's a habit)
HAHA, and i had the deepest impression about yonghui telling us that NCC is not about climbing trees. HAHA!

-To sidetrack for a while-
i don't feel any sense of belonging at snowsphere.
After all it's fishyfishhan for about three years.
And it's irritating here, the way i get confused stupidly because posts are private, public and friends only.
I feel like going back to fishyfishhan, considering.
Anyway, NO RESTRICTIONS NOW! YIPEE! So it means that unless i feel bitchy, blogger wouldn't be a bad choice!
-back to topic-

Everything seemed to have been just yesterday.
Everything that we've been through together.
Anyway, we've told each other how we feel about all these, so i will not elaborate.
No matter what, no matter how old we'll be in the future, don't forget our MUST meeting every leap year. And, of course, whenever we are free and feel like meeting each other
But delta08, SENIORS FOREVER!

-edited- (now that i've got the photo.)
And for gracia, PARTNERS forever!

Thanks for tolerating all those stupid nonsense that i've given you.
-Read the back of the photo!-
It was really wonderful with you as a partner. MUCKS!

Next, my cadets, ( feel very mean to still use "my cadets" but, i don't care loh! Once my cadets, always my cadets. Also, just like them, it takes time for me to get used. So i am going to use that term)
although it has only been less than a year but it's like they are my little small kids. I know i would still be able to see them in school. Still hear them greet and then to reply them happily this time!
Nobody would be willing to hand her kids over.
I think i am really SLOW. Though my speech to them was from the bottom of my heart, i didn't really cry badly.
But after "da jia pai shou", i suddenly thought about delta and my cadets. I thought that from that on they will no longer be my cadets and that we can't really spent much time with each other anymore, then i cried. What i told my part about their first time, has became my last time.
I miss alpha, badly.

ALPHA!

ROD was then over, (the parade was a success!),
Then rushed home together with wendy to bath, pack clothes and take presents.
We only had less than 2 hours to do all these, plus the traveling time to the chalet.
Thanks wendy's dad and mum! If not ( i die), i will be late. HAHA, luckily i wasn't!

The first impression of reaching there was the recollection of last year's rod chalet.
I still remember clearly everything that happened.
( to sidetrack again, taewangsashinki is showing on channel u now, which made me feel like watching it all over again. It's really a good show! However, i am not pleased about the ending about so many dying, though i agree is it definetly a very good way of ending the show.)
That nostalgic feeling makes me feel like crying again.
Then i saw my cadets there, i don't know how to describe that kind of feeling, but it's like, my legs want to bring me to them. But something in me tells me that they are not my part anymore and that i can't be selfish.

ROD chalet this year is really well organized, good job specs!
Shiyu and wendy kept asking me if their part assures me that they will be able to be good specs.
Actually, to be honest, i had my doubts them, but they proved themselves to be capable and caring specs. I believe in them that they can do it and that they will clinch the best girls' unit again for year 2008(hopefully!)!

(wait, i go to the kitchen to steal ice cream first)
Back!

Yeah, all those was actually yesterday, then today.

All of us got woken up because of gracia! She was so damn noisy lah! HAHA.
Then she flicker the lights on and off and snap unglam photos of us sleeping! she so bad right?!
Haiyo, then we had breakfast and the specs brought us out to play!
The beach was really nice(:
After the "warm-up" dance and captain's ball, they wanted to play the "red indian" game from ~~syf07~~ syf06 bbq but obviously they forgot the rules and, HAHA, the whole game was super weird. Then me and constance didn't wanted to play so we went to sit but got chased by the "flying prawns" until we decided to join in :p!

~~No photos for now.~~

I suddenly feel quite lost as in what to do.
After all, nc, platoonmates and my cadets was all that i live for.(basically)

P.S. The sentence structures in this post might be a bit weird because taewangsashinki was distracting me.

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 04:12:45 GMT

The way to cure an addict is to let her continue being addicted.

The Legend

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 20:44:32 GMT

I finished the show in just two days over the weekend.
HAHA. The one Bae Yong Joon acted in.
When i heard of this drama, i told myself that i wouldn't go watch it.
To be honest, after all, how good will the show be with the guy who acted in that slow-paced love story many years ago.
And believe it or not, i watched that Winter Sonato show when i was young.
I am a real drama addict, aren't i?

What made me watch it (taewangsashinki), was actually my curiosity.
I don't understand why this show took years to film. HAHA, but now i do.
Korean shows are damn saddening, even this kind of action shows where they fight the whole day and in every episode.
And it is such an accomplishment to me that i didn't cry.
I learned a lot from this drama, really.

When, will it be that i really will know how to apply my knowledge and all that i learned, wisely in the right way?
The last korean drama i watched, that left the most deepest impression on me, was the 1st shop of coffee prince. ( HAHA, i remembered how i went crazy over it). If i were to give that a four star for the plot+acting, Then i will give this one a five star. Maybe i will go crazy over this after O's, but not now.
Catch it! It's really good.

The bad thing, however, is that every time i try to rush-watch a drama, i would have flu or cough or get a headache. So, er duh, i have those weird "symptoms" again. Will rest for an hour, then prepare for "battle" tomorrow!

It's Emath retest tomorrow, i will do well, at least a pass then catch up on everything else.
Other issues i would not mention, it's confidential(:

I love it, the fact, that i got so motivated by such a sad drama(:

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 03:34:57 GMT

Yesterday had the Literature seminar.
The second lesson was not bad, just that one guy from some weird school kept resting his leg on my chair.
DAMN IRRITATING.
So i kept falling back very hard on the chair to shake him off.

i was so irritated that i couldn't concentrate on the speaker.
Talking about the speaker, she really disappointed me, not on the fact that she is not that suzanne that i idolized but because the name suzanne gives me an impression that she has to be either pretty or demure. But nevertheless, she is still humorous and interesting, not that bad after all.
After that, i went off on my own, because i was obviously not feeling like myself. So i wandered off on my own to a lot of places just to walk around when i am supposed to be home.Evelyn and Shimin obviously asked me if i want to meet winzu with them but i still rejected them. I feel like such a loner, maybe i just wanted to be alone. Like really alone. Okay, but the process was not that bad, i reflected on many things and realized that while things are always ever-changing, there are others which will never change. I realized that some things are like a curse which you can never shake off no matter how determined you are. And the result or process of shaking it off might not be as good or smooth-sailing as you may think it will be. At times, you may even be happy because of the fact that the curse exist with you.
Actually, i find that i don't really understand myself well and i always wanted to be the way i aren't.

SO WAKE UP WAIHAN!

And so i woke up today with all of that i mind and realized that i've got a slight fever, but only telling my mum that i've got a headache. Don't want her to worry. I'll just drink lots of water and be well. So school was off for me and so my promise to hand gracia that plan i made had to be broken again. Sometimes i just want to do more things to make people around me happy, make gracia less stressed so i had thought that with the plan, the goal would be much clearer in mind so she would be less stressed.
But then it would have to mean that i only can hand it to her tomorrow.

P.S. I've got my closed holes re-pierced(my mum scolded me for defying destiny that the holes should be closed)
and i am looking forward to the trip to little india( though my dad forbids).

P.P.S. This will be public because i don't want to hide anything.

Bearistar!

Mon, 26 May 2008 13:32:18 GMT

The hot thing today, it's mother tongue O's!!!
I really did my best but no confidence at all that i will get the grade that i wanted.
Before the exam, i kept shouting "jiayou, jiayou, jiayou" to myself so i think that everyone thought that i was mad.
Okay, it's finally over, after all the intensive which was really intensive.
So now, i will catch up with my sciences, humanities and my math!!!
Not much time left, so GANBATTE!

Went out without a destination with constance, gracia and ana after that and had lunch at pizza hut in ps and we got damn full but apparently, gracia wasn't, haha, then we had $2.65 off for student's discount or something and so bought icecream at Anderson's again(again for icecream). HAHA. (p.s. gracia being known for being "babi", got greedy for icecream and went to get another one-_-''')

Then i badly wanted to get rid of my pimple so i wanted to get clearisil, or whatever you call it, because the television says it was good. Then i was dissuaded because they said the television cannot be trusted. HAHA. So i am now considering to listen to ana about oxy10 or xiangliang about her "iamnotsureproduct". (p.p.s. xiangliang came and joined us when i was deciding about the skin product, then she told me not to anyhow buy things for my face). Gracia and constance bought the "mongo pudding" and got their note stuck in the cashier's sliding machine, HAHA. Then we left for vivo and ana parted with us.

What we do after that is obvious isn't it? With xiangliang with us and her itchy fingers waiting to spend money. HAHA.
After that gracia got two basics and left for her scuba diving. SUPER COOL?!
(p.p.p.s. i want to go back there to get the purple top that, future image consultant, constance recommended!)
Then we went starbucks for catch up with our life, and realised that tall frap is actually quite short -_-'''.
We parted after the trip to NUM after the meal and home!

I've got a new crush
.
~~Wanted to post his picture here but neither my infrared nor bluetooth is working.~~
HAHA. Anyway his name is bearistar blah blah, i don't his full name though, too shy to ask him(:
I really wanted him to be with me so much then xiangliang disapprove us to be together and constance applaud:(
Now i am home so i told my mum about him then she scolded me for being stupid and she told me this, "grow up waihan, stop being like a small girl and want everything that you like!".
She's damn bad right?
HASHEZ!! (imitation of the one gracia always uses) I WANT HIM BADLY!
Buy it for me Mew! I swear i will love you like i never did before!

Pray hard that i will get it.

PPPPS: I MISS YOU SO MUCH CHERYL!!! Damn happy that i saw you today. There's a saying that all things happens in threes right?( there is right?) So coincidences like this happens in threes too! Want to see you real soon and, what's going to happen in four days time? HAHA

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

Sun, 11 May 2008 15:01:59 GMT

My post has got nothing to do with it's subject.
Just wanted to wish all mothers a happy mothers' day, especially mummy!
I LOVE YOU MUMMY!

Ordered two kfc family feast today.
Guess everyone was lazy to go out today.
Anyway last sunday' dinner would have made up for
The stupid delivery guy got the order wrongly and gave us the wrong chickens.
Then another guy came to change the order, i guess every thing's alright(:
Then helped my mum with the desert.

My family is providing me with all the love i want but it just seems that i am always not contented and i always want more.
Just look at the way i screw up everything in my life,
it's practically everything
and now i don't know how to pick up all the broken pieces and piece them back.
Anyway, things can't be perfect anymore no matter how much i want to mend them.

Maybe i need help but i don't want help.

Sun, 11 May 2008 14:35:26 GMT

Hey this is for you.
Just saw your blog today and if you were talking about me,
shut up bitch, i didn't let out anything, get your facts right.
Because of you, i felt so stupid in front of her.

So STOP making stupid claims and i don't really care at all about hearing you talk.

AVE D'LARIO!

Fri, 09 May 2008 17:05:47 GMT

Crezawards was simply marvelous this year.
Thanks Ms Vicky for all the weird tricks and ideas to liven up the whole performance.

The sound system was siao and blasting lah.
I think everyone who were there is partially deaf already.
but the effect was damn good.

So many days of practices and rehearsals and so many other thoughts and feelings that we formed during this whole thing.
It is really worth it.

Thank you delta for making today such a wonderful night.
Thank you Ave' d'lario for rocking the school.
Thank you everyone who came to watch crezawards.
Thank you all participants for everything.
Thank you jeanette aw for presenting the prizes( did i really shake her hands just now?)
Thank you all who went to watch.
Thank you all that i saw today.
Thank you!

I once had so many mistakes but it was narrowed down thanks to you guys.
I LOVE YOU DELTA!
We all love today right? YES WE DO!

*special thanks to gracia for teaching me how to shake my butt!
**also ana who patiently endured my stupid mistakes.

We all love the process.
(though i hate the part where i sprained my fat thumb)

We really do love the whole process.